my journey to health

I am really struggling with my exercise lately, I still like it but mike has stepped it up a notch or two, which is fine, but I am just not sure if I am ready, he has started us running which is cool I actually don’t mind it and would love to be able to run again, but for the first time since I started exercising I am having issues, my lower back is in constant pain and my knees are starting to hurt, I figured at some stage I was going to get some type of injury from exercising, at the end of the day it is a lot of weight to expect my joints to carry around.

It really concerns me that if I injure myself I am screwed, these classes work for me and without them I am not sure what i would do. My knees are hurting to just to walk on now and that is a concern, I am also having massive issues with my foot, the arch of my left foot is killing me it feels like a constant cramp but it is not cramp – so I am off to the doc this week to see if I can get a referral to see someone about it.

I missed saturdays class as I was really sick fri night and all of saturday with a nasty tummy bug and am still struggling with it today, after watching the video I was glad I missed it, it involved burpees and lots of other horrible things that I struggle to do. I hate these exercises, not because they are hard, they are hard at any weight, I hate them because my weight puts me at a distinct disadvantage, it wouldn’t matter how fit I was my size stops me being able to do them without looking and feeling like a dick.

I hate that I struggle to do these I hate that I struggle to get down on the floor to get up off the floor, a seemingly simple thing like bending at the waist and walking my hands out is so, so hard, bending at the waist is a mission, let alone the rest. So when I see these exercises written on the board it actually makes me want to cry, it makes me want to get up and walk out. I don’t. but sometimes I really want to. And I hate these days as they make me hate the class I mostly enjoy. So am I glad I got a tummy bug and missed out on saturday, hell yes I am, but I have no doubt I will make up for it during the week