Time to sort my shit
So had a good training session this morning, though halfway through, I felt like I was going to vomit, my stomach is certainly going to make me pay for yesturday!!
I was very unmotivated this morning, I didn’t want to be there, I felt like shit and to be honest it went through my head a number of times that I just don’t want to do this anymore! Being fat is easy, it takes no effort you don’t have to work at it, it just is!
But I will keep trudging on, cause I need to, cause its not just about looking fat it is about my health, I have four children, I need to be there for them to be able to do things with them.
So Mike is right I have been so stoked with not putting on weight for so long that I have become a bit complacent, those of you who put on weight easily will understand the massive achievement it is to not put on weight even when you have eaten badly, but you know what I was stoked with that right back in january I was so stoked to come back from holiday and not be 10 kilos heavier and it is a big achievement personally for me.
However, it is not enough, because it was such a huge thing I let that be my goal and just let things be, now I need to lose weight, I need to get into the 130’s. I have joined an optifast group but I don’t want to do that it is just another diet. Now I know it works and people lose vast ammounts of weight on it, but I don’t want to do a diet, I want to be able to do it with real food, with food that will sustain my body with food that will make me feel good, so time for a bit of research I think and time to stop being complacent and actually lose some weight.
My body has and is changing, the exercise is doing that, I am getting smaller, things are fitting me better and it lulls me into a sense of I’m doing ok and I am, but I need to up the anti and do better, it has been a year this month since I first started exercising and I am really pleased with how far I have come, time to set new goals. Last year was a year of starting this journey of learning new things and learning to get off my ass. This year is going to be a year of getting this weight off.
On a side note we did kicking at class today, I really enjoyed it I am loving this boxing stuff, I am going to give myself a bit longer and then I think I might look at doing some kickboxing classes
June 6th, 2014 at 6:38 am
Hi, I have been thinking about blogging and have been browsing heaps of kiwi blogs to help decide, and ended up on yours; I just wanted to say GOOD LUCK – I imagine it must be incredibly hard to do what you’re doing and even though the weight has been slow to come off, it’s great to see you’ve almost made a year of a changed lifestyle/view. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY for next month and keep going strong. All the best.
Oh – also, maybe this is a useful tip, try adding 10-30 deep, belly breaths to your day. Sit or lie down, with your legs up if you want, however you’re comfortable, and breathe in thru your nose right down to the bottom of your lungs, then slowly out again. Ideally if you can do this somewhere by yourself is good. The idea is to communicate to your automatic nervous system (the part that controls heart rate, fat storage, blood sugar etc) that you’re ‘safe’. You’ll also actually be working the muscles around your abdomen and doing something good for your head.
And eat porridge for breakfast with coconut oil, whole oats, sunflower seeds, buckwheat and real maple syrup. You might not be interested in this but these are two good things in my life that I’m offering as a gift. Cheers!
June 10th, 2014 at 8:31 am
Thank you marnie, will give it a try