my journey to health

Today my post is not about exercise, though we did have an awesome session this morning, running again!! I will get there one day without too much pain I am sure!

Today my post is about death. On thursday this week another of my sons friends took his own life, this breaks my heart, I will never understand how someone so young with so much ahead of them can choose death as an option, death should never be an option, it should never be a choice it should be something you fight hard against. I admire my father who has terminal cancer at 73 years old who fights every day to stay on this earth, who is given no choice, but refuses to give up and let it beat him. And then in the space of only a few months two young people opt out of this world.
You know I understand a little with teenage suicide, I remember being a teen, the emotions, the anxiety, how every little thing becomes huge and drama filled, when you don’t know where you fit in, how your life is going to turn out, who your true friends are, but when you hit your 20’s and you earn money, you party, you have great friends, you travel, you buy a house, you get engaged, you start having families, it is the start of everything, so much to look forward to, and it makes me so sad that these young adults will never get married, have families, travel the world, that their parents have to live with the fact their child no longer wants to be on this earth, the child you raised and loved and put everything into, that they will never have grandchildren, attending their weddings, or anymore birthdays, that they have a massive hole in their hearts that will never be filled.

That their friends have to deal with the grief of losing someone close at such a young age, the confusion, the hurt, the hearbreak of knowing you will never see them again. I consider myself very blessed, I have never lost a friend, in fact the only people in my life whose funerals I have attended have been my grandparents, that is the natural order of this world and that is the way it should always be. I hope that this coming so close to the death of Danielle doesn’t break any of them, that they all continue to stick together and support each as they have always done. I am eternally grateful every day that all my children are okay and long may they continue to be and to all the parents out their who have lost children, my heart goes out to you