my journey to health

4 years ago I sat with a dear friend drinking vodka as she mourned the loss of her husband who was killed whilst at work, this week I sat with her again drinking vodka whilst she mourned the loss of her father, who died suddenly after a routine operation. I love this women, she is pretty damn awesome and we have a lot of fun together, but she has been through a lot, her children have now lost the two most important men in their lives and it breaks my heart that she and her family has to go through this heartache all over again. Sometimes life is truly unfair and it always seems to happen to the good ones unfortunately!!

So of course the last two days have been really bad for me, I missed wed class as I was up north with her and we drunk alcohol and we ate lollies and chips and dip and mcdonalds cheeseburgers and today my stomach is killing me I am paying for eating food that I have not eaten for a while and I deserve to pay for it, apart from feeling sick I feel a bit pissed off that I let myself be that person I used to be even if it was for only 2 days, I will be highly pissed off if it shows on the scales on saturday my final weigh in for the end of this lot of shape shift, so today I am detoxing and fingers crossed it will all be good!!