my journey to health

So it has been a crazy week or so, I have had my brother here from canada, which means we have had a house full of people, with him and josh home and all the friends that entails and all the noise and the food and the drinking. Diet?? What diet?? Actually I have not been too bad and am doing well on not drinking so much as well, that week of not doing it led into the next week of only having the odd one and we haven’t even been buying our fortnightly bottle!!

Sometimes I crave peace and quiet and alone time, now don’t get me wrong, I love a house full of people, I love the noise and the chaos, I love people feeling comfortable enough to make themselves at home here but just every now and again, I want to spend some time with just me, no kids, no husband, no one, just me, this rarely happens as someone always pops over, or calls. Last week two days in a row tristan went to kindy for full days, I was so excited!! Two days without children, for at least a few hours, I was determined to catch up on some sleep, read a book, just relax. Hahahahahahaha that was not going to happen, people always interrupt my plans!! So I am thinking I might go walking again, on those days tristan is in kindy I think I might take my book, walk to a nice secluded spot and just hang out with myself.

So amongst the chaos this week we also organised a pink ribbon breakfast, with the help of two friends, which mean’t more people coming to stay, tracy came from whangarei and claire from hamilton, so friday night we had some drinks as you do, I bought myself some bubbly wine, holy shit that was a stupid idea, those who know me know what bubbly wine does to me. I got a little drunk, like teenage giggly girl drunk, I went to bed around 3, which was okay except I had class in the morning at 7am. Everyone was like don’t go, take a day off but as I hadn’t been to the monday class I had to go, god I wish I hadn’t. I spent 20 mins on the bike, I actually hate that bike, I don’t mind the pedalling bit I actually find that quite easy as it doesn’t puff me just fatigues my legs, but the seat, jesus! You would think that with the size of my ass I would have enough padding, well I don’t, that thing hurts and after 20 mins it was not pleasant.
Now I have to say yesturday was the first time, i felt awful during class, there were 6 of us and although I get it, I couldn’t have done what the others did and my fitness level was not close to the others who were there, I felt really excluded as my exercises were different from theirs and for the first time I felt like the fat girl that didn’t fit into the class.
I had to do the bike then the hill and some squats and crunches in between then the hill again, I did this three times, the others also did the hill but with logs and with loads of exercises in between and as glad as I was not to have to do what they were doing it meant that I was doing my part on my own, I did one go of the hill all by myself and I didn’t like it at all!
I will say but ffs don’t tell mike, the hill is getting easier, I can get to the top without puffing so much I feel like I am going to die, but it does still kill my calves, today my calves are exceptionally sore, though that seems to be a permanent state of being at the moment I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have sore calves.

After class my head was starting to hurt and my hangover was kicking it pretty badly so off I went to the breakfast, what a turn out and an exceptional day, we had amazing raffles and thanks to vanessa an amazing venue it all went so well, but it mean I spent another few hours on my feet cooking breakfast for 70 people, god bless my daughter who helped me out and was amazing!!
When I spend too much time on my feet I have this issue with a pinched nerve, it means that my left leg goes completely numb and to touch it feels like it has been bruised really badly it is incredibly uncomfortable, standing for long periods also means my diverticulitis plays up really badly and causes me a lot of pain,  so by the time I came home I was very, very sore and seriously considered popping a couple of tramadol but I didn’t as it has been such a long time since I have had to rely on them I prefer not to.

We then decided to go to dinner, wildfire it was! OMG the meat was amazing, so much meat, I swear I ate an entire lamb to myself the crust on the lamb was to die for!! And yes I ate too much, way too much and I didn’t feel the slightest bit guilty about it either, after a wander round town we headed home where I proceeded to fall asleep sitting up on the couch!!

Now we are off to a day at the zoo with hubbys work, my hips hurt, my back hurts (stupid leg raises) my calves hurt and I am so looking forward to sitting down tonight and doing nothing!!!