my journey to health

This will be a rather long post as I have been meaning to write it for a while now and have only just gotten around to it!!
I am 41 years old and last weight at the doctors was 148.4 kilos, I had it wrong at 146!!
I have been big for a while but for the first time in my life I started noticing it affecting me, things like visting people and sitting on outdoor furniture, rickety chairs and those horrible plastic ones, gave me the shits, I even broke a canvas chair once.

I desperately want to go and visit friends in the south island and thought of getting on an aeroplane and not fitting in the seat scares the crap out of me! I struggle to sit on the floor, I struggle to get up off the ground
I cannot bend down and put socks on or tie my laces without a struggle, I cannot play on the playground with my kids.
And I do not want to be this person, I have never been this person, my weight has never stopped me doing anything – now it does.

I have diverticulitis, so my doctor put me on the FODMAP diet, I have given up a lot of foods and for the first time in a very long time I feel well, I am no longer in pain, I wake up feeling okay, I no longer suck back a pile of losec everyday, I feel good!! First step and the good thing is I don’t have to count calories or have certain ammounts I just eat the foods I am allowed!!!

I have this awesome friend amy who is now a qualified personal trainer, so I made the decision to ask her to help me, knowing that there was no escape from her, that I couldn’t make bullshit excuses to not turn up and that I couldn’t just ignore her emails or phone calls, I was finally going to be accountable for exercising – my worst nightmare! I hate exercise, I really, truly do!!