my journey to health

Things have been going pretty good of late, not so much exercise, but as things settle back to normal I will get back into it. Still doing PT sessions with mike which are great though.

So I went to the doctor yesturday who commented as soon as I walked in on how much weight I had lost, so he weighed me and on his scales from highest to lowest I have now lost 40 kilos!!! What a massive ammount that is, I struggle to even comprehend that much weight. If you asked me to carry 40 kilos around I doubt I could do it, yet I did it for a very long time. I am really stoked at this and really proud of myself for doing it, so was my doctor, my doctor used to be a very fat man, he no longer is, so he fully understands what it is like to be fat and everything that goes along with it.

He asked me how awesome it was to be able to tie my shoelaces, and you know what I hadn’t even noticed that I could do that again until a month ago, the ease I do it with now is just taken for granted. I forget how much I struggled with these simple things before. I bought some shoes the other day which I absolutely love, they have a t bar across the top and it didn’t even cross my mind that I usually avoid these kind of shoes, in fact any type of shoes that you have to tie or buckle I just don’t buy as I cannot bend to do it. Well after the doctor made that comment, I started thinking and realised not only did I buy shoes I never normally would but I do them up and undo them without any trouble at all.

Everything is just a little bit easier now, bear crawls for example, I still hate them with a passion but it is not as uncomfortable to do them anymore, running is easier, hell walking is even easier!

I can cross my legs again, last night I painted my toenails, these things I haven’t done in years, shaving my legs is no longer a mission and you know what’s really nice, walking into a shop and buying clothes – before I had to pick up the biggest size no matter what it looked like, I just couldn’t be fussy! And I would hope like hell it would fit, I didn’t even bother trying things on I just bought the biggest, it got to a stage however that often the biggest wouldn’t fit , that was quite scary as I didn’t really know where to go from there. Now I walk in and I try things on, it is hard to get my head around not grabbing the biggest sizes and having a choice of what I can wear!!! And they are no long big and unflattering, now they have shape.

This is a huge life changing thing, I really hadn’t realised just how much my weight affected everything I did.  And how much harder it made everything!