my journey to health

Will be interesting to see how sore I am tomorrow but shit I am sore tonight, my back is killing me as are my hips.Today was a hard class, damn the italians for losing the soccer!! I had to wog up that hill again bloody hard this time, cause I was already buggered from the class, but I managed it – just!!

I have however found something I loathe more than squats yay!! The stupid ball thing I can’t remember what he calls it but it is heavy and you have to throw it down then squat and pick the bloody thing back up again!! It hurts, my legs, it hurts my back I really do not like it, it is almost like he spends his days scouring the internet looking for new torture devices!!

But there is an upside, I freakin love my class, I love the girls I go with, I love the way they encourage me and support me and each other, so stoked I found shape shift it is truly changing my life, bit by bit – Oh I must mention as well, I have shoulders!!! I don’t remember not having shoulders but all of a sudden they are there I can feel them, small steps!!

I would just like to take a moment to talk about a woman who I truly admire, who has really inspired me to do this in the first place, her name is kylie ann, when I met her about 5 years ago, she weighed around 190 kilos, she was doing optifast through the hospital and she used to walk a lot!! I used to look at her and think jesus how the hell do you do it, she was at that time about 70 kilos heavier than me and there is no way I could have done what she did, she used to walk 10 kms, pushing two children in a pushchair, she lost about 50 kilos from memory and then she plateaued and she struggled and she slowly started putting it back on, eventually she had bypass surgery and man did she use that opportunity given to her, she started training, she walked, she ran, she did classes, she discovered a whole new life, I was stoked for her, she looked incredible, then she had bowel surgery, after a whole pile of things going wrong she ended up with a massive hernia, I was shocked when I saw it, it was huge and she struggled to exercise with it, she slowly started putting on weight again. She still has the hernia she is fighting to have surgery which fingers crossed will be soon but she is still putting herself out there, still doing the exercises she is able to do  and still fighting to lose those extra kilos.

I love this woman, I love how hard she works, I love the effort she puts in to everything she does and one day I will catch up to her and stand alongside her, instead of us being the fatties in the photo we will be the hotties, this time will come.