my journey to health

I have been so busy with work, class, Xmas parties, catch ups it is all go!!

So I  am now down 27 kilos since I started this journey with the majority of it been since starting shape shift! I was talking to someone today who was asking how I finally did it and I thought about it for a while and realised, though I loathe to admit it that mike is right it is all about accountability. You join the gym or go to a class where you are just a number in a crowd you are only accountable to yourself  and it is so much easier to quit. But at shape shift I am accountable to mike and to the girls as well, you have to explain why you couldn’t be assed turning up! And you work out with the same people they become your friends, you support each other, you celebrate your losses , commiserate  about your gains, compete with each other.

I get so tired of hearing people saying, it is easy just get off your ass, go for a walk,  any exercise will help, it doesn’t have to cost money to lose weight and to all that I would like to say BULLSHIT!!! Getting off my ass and going for a walk was not going to motivate me to change, sure it would have been better than sitting on my ass doing nothing, but in my case I needed more, I needed help, motivation and support, I needed someone who got me, who understood this wasn’t going to be easy, who understood I hated exercise in any form, and this did not come cheap, it came at a price. I was very lucky to find shape shift thanks to a friend,  instead of an hours personal training for my money I got 3 hours  of what amounts to personal training, our classes are small so we get to know each other and more importantly mike gets to know us so he can tailor exercises to your needs if necessary. But it costs and without shape shift I don’t honestly know if I would have continued this journey as long as I have !!

So in my case it did need to cost money and I doubt there are many people at 150kilos plus that could do this on their own. So spare a thought next time you tell a friend to go for a walk, to get off their ass, it’s not that easy, it is hard, not only is the exercise hard, but there is an embarrassment factor , you don’t want people laughing at the fat chick walking down the street, the one wearing those tights that you tell all your mates look terrible on fat people, yes those same tights you say should never be worn by anyone over a size 10. Yes you are part of the reason we don’t exercise in public, the reason we stay home, the reason we comfort eat. We wear those tights that look so hideous because nothing else fits us. We wear that Un shapely dress because not only do other dresses not fit us, we are embarrassed to have clothes cling to the fat rolls. We wear shorts and tops to the pools because even though you tell us we should just wear togs, we know you will have a wee giggle and comment on how we actually look in them. So covering up protects from the nastiness and is easier than exposing ourselves to ridicule. We do not thank you for your opinion!!

Anyway I digress, sometimes I wish every person could spend the day in the body of a fat person, maybe we would all learn to be more tolerant of others

So during the week my daughter took my photo in the same clothes as the original photo Amy took when I started this. I looked at the photos and thought damn I haven’t changed that much, then I put them side by side and I was stoked with results!!! I don’t actually recognise the person in the first photo!!!

I had a bit of a shit week it was so hot I struggled with everything I don’t cope well with heat and with work and class I was exhausted!! I had Wednesday off work as I was rather unwell and I slept and slept and slept! I missed class wed night but I didn’t care I just needed a break, so I have only been to two classes this week – naughty, I know!!!

My bad week however was made good again with an awesome weekend we listened to ragamuffin with awesome friends, then today we went out for lunch and a bit of shopping! Thought id try on some clothes, now this is something I usually hate as I grab the biggest size and hope like hell it’s not too tight. The biggest being a 26! Today I tried a dress it was a 24, way too big the only other size the had was an 18, so I tried it for a laugh, it fit!! It wasn’t a nice dress but I got into an 18, zipped it up and it was only slightly too small – stoked!! We then went to City chic, I have never fitted their clothes even the largest XL was too small for me, today I bought an L !!! But that wasn’t the only highlight of my day, I haven’t had a bath in a normal bath for 6 years, why?? Because my ass doesn’t fit in one!! Guess what? It does now!’