my journey to health

Had PT session today, wow I think I might be sore tomorrow, had to do 30 hard out minutes on the bike, wow I was sweating like a bush pig!!! Then arms, because I was stupid enough to ask for arms, may regret that at work tomorrow!!!

Now there is a massive downside to losing weight – SAGGY SKIN!!! And boobs and everything else. When you have been this size everything is stretched well and truly out of shape, there is no chance of it ever going back and to be honest the thought of masses of saggy skin is almost as offputting as being fat in the first place, I really don’t know which is worse!

I probably shouldn’t have googled, but I did, and I am sorry but ewwww it is horrible. I am already noticing it around my neck and on my stomach, my stomach especially is sagging lower and lower as there is less fat to pad it out and it is really not pretty or nice. Underneath my arms swing like they have a mind of their own. sure they were always fat and always swung a bit but it is far worse now. I don’t wave and I try not to gesticulate when talking. I don’t wear singlets or cap sleeves or anything that shows my upper arms!

Oh and my boobs, I thought I was doing alright for a 40 something year old, well no, no I was not, it was just the rolls of fat on my stomach holding them in a perky position, now those rolls are deflating, guess what is going down with them!!

So I am thinking it is time to start saving for a wee trip to thailand get a few lifts and nips and tucks here and there!!!

The other downside clothing, I am now heading into a 22 from a 26-28 and as much as it is lovely having things too big for me, it is quite costly to clothe someone my size and it is not a few kilos between sizes either it is a good 10 kilos from one size to another so it is not like I can skip a size of clothes and just wait till I hit the next size, I need to buy clothes in every bloody size!!! I do really look forward to the day I can walk into a shop and buy something cheap off the rack that doesn’t look like it was made for my nana!!!

My leg is still giving me assholes, my new worst enemy those horrible silver things you have to push through to get into a supermarket!! They hit my leg at exactly the wrong spot and it hurts when I forget and one of them gets me!! I hope someone can sort it soon because it is starting to drive me insane!!!

Anyway off to the hot pools this weekend with some awesome friends, which means new togs, cause the old ones are a bit gapey and saggy!!!!